You would think it hurts, It doesn’t. It’s a high, a relief when for a sweet second, you can point out the direction of the pain in real time, you can have an active reason to feel. They always say it incredulously as if who would want to feel the pain.
I smile to myself, what do they know.
Finally, I’m in control, I can determine myself what I want to feel, how I want to feel and for a freeing moment; I’m me.
As the drops of crimson appear, I’m laughing.
I’m laughing because I can finally see you again.
I’m laughing because this is one thing that I get to keep.
I’m laughing because these beads of shared blood and your voice in my head covers all my senses until all I can see and feel and hear, is you.
It’s madness and I’m laughing because this madness is mine and no one can take me from me.